While I know the importance of paying myself first, I often forget to actually do so. Today I was able to remember. The problem with me is I often feel guilty when I attend to that, because I feel like I'm being lazy and not helping where I should. I frequently have to remind myself that my service to others by that point has started to lag. My energy has depleted and I am running on fumes. Service fueled by fumes is not effective, so we should never feel guilty when we have to take the time to refuel.
Today was a day of refueling. The guilt wanted to come in, but I told myself to ignore it. The refueling was necessary. And how rejuvenated and clear and at peace I felt after a few hours of my refueling--that is a testament to the importance of paying yourself first. Just don't let it get to the point of pay yourself only or pay yourself more than others. Selfishness is not recharging.