After the Darkness

Day 316

Things are looking up much more. Fridays are typically very slow at work. Today was no different. Yet the co-worker I was with all day is one I work with very well. We do well with work things, but also in understanding each other's personal lives. It has helped me a lot having her to work with since I began as a Children's librarian.

And after the many things I was able to do and some good conversations while at work, things finally started to look up.

But it wasn't over with that. I was able to talk to a friend on the phone, one who has been busier and more stressed than me. This friend rarely opens up. It's a typical trait of theirs. It is often why I feel unequal in our friendship. That I'm never much of a help to them, and do little in lifting, supporting, inspiring, improving, sustaining, or any of those other positive and wonderful qualities that a friend should do for another. So when my friend opens up and I am able to try to offer solace and am given a task that can help them, I am filled with one of the greatest senses of purpose. I feel useful. I feel like I am doing something to deserve the title of friend. And I love it.

This is the best I've felt in the last couple of weeks or so. It feels nice to feel good, happy, purposeful, and useful.