Sunday, November 16, 2008
Sacrifice brings forth...?
I have thought and pondered and finally concluded that there are some friends (mostly those I am closest to) to whom I am a terrible friend to. I have opened up too much of myself and all they see now is nothing good. Just the negative, un-Christlike aspects. When Moroni 7:45 shows you everything you're not, that's a sign that you're tearing others down and not lifting them up. I may be working on changing, but during that all I'm going to do is make them miserable. That isn't being a friend. I know they'll be fine without me. They were fine before I entered their life and they will be happier when I'm out of it. Other friends are works in progress like me, on levels closer to where I am. I believe we understand one another and help lift each other up. But when the lifting is done by one and all the other one (namely me) does is tear them down, that is an unhealthy friendship/relationship. There can be no greater pain for me than losing some of the closest friends I have ever known. But I don't want to hurt them any more than I do. I can't. Today we talked about leaving people better than we found them. And I've just made them worse. The Christlike thing is to walk away before any more harm is done. These people will be better off without my "friendship."
"You must do the thing you think you cannot do."-Eleanor Roosevelt.
"Our main purpose in life is to love each other. If we can't do that, we can at least try not to hurt one another." -Dalai Lama